Annie , I like that little verse, I might post that on my website if ok with you.. that is kinda how I am at the moment, its like when I went shopping this morning , the rest of the world was going about its usual way. people were chatting, laughing and kids screaming in the background.. I felt like telling them al to shut up. but I bit my tounge and just did what I had to do to get the heck out of there,

I think my nerves im a nervous wreck , tuesday night ( day of the funeral) I spent most of it by the toilet, I dont drink or anything like that so I cant compare it to a hang over, I think I finally fell asleep by 4 am ..

now there playing all those christmas carols on the radio,tv etc Its driving me freeking nuts, so I put Joe on instead.. Sometimes I think Ive lost it, want to screem at the world and say why the heck isnt anyone care that my mums gone? it hurts so much.. My mum and I had a tight bond, it was funny I was 3 years old , had verious heart operations etc and wasnt responding to any medications or any thing like that.

they said (the docs) to mum to take me for walks etc, that didint work , so she took me for a drive in the big V8 falcon Xy (aussies will know about that) she turned on the radio and I jumped up and wanted to play with the dials, then all is ok I went home a few days later..

My mum taught me how to drive, how to cook my mum gave me my first accoustic guitar, my first electric guitar, she took me to lessons after school etc

I could talk to my mum about any thing and every thing , you name it we were tight...

How am I supposed to tell the world how I feel about all this , I knew it was going to happen, that this dementia was cruel but the best thing for her was to pass on to the next life..

OK ALL MY FRIENDS SOUND OFF...plz

Yes Mark, one might say that :)

Yes Mark, one might say that :)

edit: ha! My post doubled - so one might say that twice! lol!

LOL!! And Amen.. Chelle :] Happy T-Day to you and yours !! MT

Happy Thanksgiving all MT

hey joe how are ya?

HAPPY TAHNKSGIVING JOE

well, you guys kept telling me to pick up my guitar , so I did listen to my new song, song for my mum it was so hard to record..

sound click is stuffing up my song , dammit.. im trying to fix it.. might have to retry again later

I NEED A HUG!!!

Well Isn't it ironic that just a week ago i quoted the following song and said...

I have to admit to being the kind of person who generally takes no notice of lyrics....but boy oh boy...you have to with this one! I man to write about Cancer from the patients point of view....its so sad that so many people do actually have to go through this!

Now I gotta watch my mum go through it....the shock of the news hit me yesterday...I was a jibbering wreck...a man phoned up at work and was explaining something....and my brain just couldn't cope or understand what he was saying...huh...sum professional I was....ended up telling him to phone back in an hour!......

Jason - I could understand how you felt when I was crying my eyes out in my office....and I could hear hearty laughter from the other offices....just for a moment I couldn't help but think...my mum is about to go through an agonizing experience with death at the end....and you are laughing!....But I realized that they didn't know about her situation or mine.

curling up in a ball today....get my head together...ready for the trauma ahead.

The Forgotten Part 2, Michelle, Bahduh, Captain Steve (wheres that picture?) cosmic ape, keniko, Ovation1 and especially AussieRGman....thank you for your comments...I do appreciate your kindness muchly.

Mowlie2000 - Thats a hard one...I luuurv them all, they have different qualities about them ...of course I luv Blowout....for the sheer grrrrrrrr-ness and the billy idol the second voice and the lil guitar solo, not that it made a difference but I stood up and faught for The Jester to be on there coz I luved that anyway...my personal favourite has to be autumn Skies...oh oh and Spanish Zenfish has a quality all of its own...luv that....oh and landscape in a wild state, through the clouds and plight of the cosmos come near the top too!

hmmmm....see told you...they are all just great!

Well done again to all involved!

Zen:Scroll down 2 the Wasted Sunsets clip you can hear just what kind of influence Richie had on Yngwie, wide vibrato thanks to the scalloped strat, great stuff, btw:got the piccys, house looks excellent!

Satriella:Sorry t hear that hon, jeez its been a hard ol time for a lot here in T2J lately

i would like to song of you. i would like to tour concert at thailand. i like to play guitar of rock & blues. so that my styel and listening of you.i feel the soul in my self tone and note to wander with you solo guitar. i wuold like to an instructor stlye guitar an opportunity or parliament on team.but is it to the extent of a dream but to hope and opportunity. and i think playing solo guitar level medium level i hove to Ans. of please you.

Steve T Nice job on the christmas song... Satriella many big HUGs for you, Were going tbru some rough times at the moment, it sucks, It hurts that theres nothing you can do, and in the end maybe at the other end is a better place, I know that now for my mum.. email me any time...

Aussie Aussie Aussie - Good for you Jason. Did it help? I hope so.

Satchiella - A big cyber HUG heading your way Sandy, make sure you catch it! Is there something your mum has always wanted to do but never quite got round to it? Still haven't sorted which pic, but thanks again, i'll get one sorted and sent. Take care.

I love this song...

I sing this song at the top of my voice!!!!

http://www.videocodezone.com/videos/s/system_of_a_down/lonely_day.html

thanks for all your help with guitars....I have now ordered an Ibanez GSZ120 which is most importantly BLACK (us girls have to think about colour co-ordination).....oh and it has one of those things you can have with fries!!!

and an amp

and a lead

hehe

Joe, Webbie, Joe's management, anyone...

HERE is where Guam is..... Can you please go there SOON...

death cube k...thank you....

Jason...thank you....that's a very nice song for you mum....8)

mikesb...I try to keep most of my songs in the 3 minute range...sometimes they have a life of their own...lol...thank you...

Watchin Derek Truck's Songlines DVD this mornin.....

That boy has some serious talent, music sometimes a little hippie dippie tho........ LMAO Persian carpets on stage is always a dead giveaway.....hehehehehe

I'm guessing some serious incense was being burned too......